I was broken

I'm back to the blog after quite a long hiatus. The other night, God did a big work on me- He broke me. And by that I mean, ugly cry broke me. I had a rough couple of days, where it seemed like nothing was going right. I lost it Tuesday night- broke down hysterically. At this point, I was just ready to give up. Somewhere in the midst of my breakdown, I heard God telling me "You can do this without Me." And I knew He was right. I got out A Woman After His Own Heart , a book a coworker of mine had given me a few months ago. I started chapter one that night, then chapter two the next morning. I'm also completing the study guide along with it. Yesterday, my best friend gave me a book about praying through marriage difficulties, so I've added that to my daily quiet time as well. I feel really good right now, like I'm in a true relationship with God.

Yeah, so....

Started back to work this week, haven't done so well on keeping up with the blog. Which is funny, because I've been on the computer... anywho, I will do better!

This was a rough week. Nicholas got sick Monday halfway through the day, so I had to leave work early and go get him. Then on Wednesday, Gabriel had to miss school because his asthma has been flaring up really bad. Took him to the doctor, and he's on some new meds, so hopefully it will help.

Healthwise, I haven't worked out at all this week. :( My knees were REALLY hurting last week after I did the 30 day shred. They're still hurting. :( I've decided to forgo the shred (as much as I hate it) and just do my Walk Away the Pounds dvd for now... it's a longer workout, but less impact. I've done better with eating later in the week. Beginning of the week, I succumbed to the siren's call of fast food. But I straightened up after Brandie gave me a pretty stern talking to. (Love ya, girl!)

Love Dare- Yeah, I haven't kept up at all this week. And you know what, it's been a craptastic week in my marriage. I am vowing to get right back on that. We need something.

Spirituality- Our small group started back up this week. It was good to get back in the swing of things. We will be back at church tomorrow, after missing almost an entire month.

So, I derailed... but I'm back on track, hopefully.

Ugh, well...

No excuses. I messed up. I kinda fell off the wagon, and got stepped on by the horse. However, I am NOT laying down and waiting for the horse to poop on me. No, I am getting back up. I haven't worked out in almost a week. I haven't done my love dare since Friday. I haven't read my Bible since Saturday.

But guess what- it's OKAY. I am going to forgive myself. I am not going to take this out on me. I am not going to stop my journey. I need to remember that there will be detours on this road. I believe in being real and honest with myself. My friend Brandie added up my dinner... 1135 calories- in ONE meal. Ugh, freakin' Sonic. I feel sick. And I will make myself remember this next time I am tempted to stop at the drive thru.

Oops, missed a day

Sorry about not posting yesterday... that little thing called life got in the way. I thought we were just going to stay home for an uneventful New Year's Eve, I would do the shred, and we'd just hang out. No such luck. My husband came home from work and announced that we were going to his aunt's house for the evening. It was a lot of fun, as he comes from a huge family and gatherings are always a blast. I ate a little more fajitas and rice than I should have, but I did avoid soda and drank water instead! My in-laws cooked bunuelos (fried tortillas sprinkled with cinnamon and sugar) and I did have one of those. All in all, a good evening.
For the love dare yesterday, I was supposed to buy him something that let him know I was thinking of him. I made him a tres leches cake (I had to buy the whipped cream, so it counts!). He was very happy with that. I've always enjoyed buying/doing things for others, so this challenge was a lot of fun for me. I haven't even read today's challenge yet... guess I'm taking a day off since it's already 7:30 pm!
Health-wise, I've done pretty good. Eating today was a bit different because my husband was off work, and we decided to cook breakfast at home, then go out for a late lunch. This morning I ate two pancakes and a piece of bacon. I stopped when I was full, rather than just full-on indulging as I would have previously. However... I drank a coke today! Yes, I broke the fast. I only had one, and I think moderation is going to be much more realistic for me than complete abstainance.
We took the boys shoe shopping, then drove around to look at some houses in some areas we are interested in moving to. Yes.. moving! :) Our lease is up in June, and we hope to be moved out in May. We are thrilled to become homeowners!